KLAD @ Sticks & Stones @adlez27@vocalounge.cafe

i hope my filipino followers will find it in their hearts to forgive me

thought of this first when i saw other fashion historians discuss and demonstrate clothing construction methods, but thinking about it again bc of the standard technique for shuffling several decks of cards together

(sees someone do something with a particular well-practiced standard technique)
wow! so unique
(sees someone else do it exactly the same way)
wow! reminds me of (first person)!

me: knows that nobody is looking at me or gives a shit what I'm doing, has literally been reading random interesting articles for the past few hours
also me: gets embarassed wondering if anyone will notice me trying to study basic tagalog grammar

I am actually SO happy about getting my stp packer today and I wish I could share the good news with more people but since it's technically nsfw I can't be yelling about it everywhere hahaha

Wondering if I should try doing a total caffeine reset over the next week so I can at least get that working again. Idk.

I tell myself it's better to have something consistent and stable and routine vs sudden boosts and crashes but I'd like to know what that sudden clarity would feel like if even just once

Ngl mildly jealous of other adhders who start stimulants and get to report dramatic improvements on day 1 because nonstimulants take months to build up and all I get for feedback is to try and guess if it's helping

This might be because I've been watching Utena but handsome Rina would look so good... she wouldn't be into it but I definitely would

i keep having these "Oh that probably wasn't normal" realizations whenever i look at shit i've been through with the added context of untreated adhd

(thinks back over the past) oh so it probably wasn't normal for me to be crying at school all the time

flipping through my tagalog vocab flashcards and i keep forgetting the word for "to remember"

Got around to adding random people I knew from school on linkedin and oh my god so many of them ALSO got jobs straight out of college. Majoring in computer science is a life hack

its been a long time since i've watched a kinoshita yuka video and maaan i've forgotten how much i like watching her ;_;

UTAU CUBE!! UTAU CUBE!! UTAU CUBE!!